I just thought I'd write for a minute before heading to bed. I suppose I should be listening to the president's speech, but I just am growing weary of everything. Sigh. This election looks like it's going to be one of the most divisive ones in my memory. So many people I know can't decide who to vote for, OR, they are upset and defensive about who they are or are not voting for. Frankly I can't figure it out and go back and forth. I think I finally made a decision because I really respect McCain.
Anyway... my purpose here is not to be political.
NCU is going full blast now. So much is happening it's hard to stay on top of it all. I am working as hard as I ever have in my life and still I can't get everything done that needs to be done. I've finally found a place to live where I just don't feel guilty about not being able to do everything. In the past I gave up sleep, now I can't, my health demands that I get my sleep, so if everything doesn't get done, well, it just doesn't get done. It's not for lack of trying on my part. But a person can only do so much in a day. We run to ragged as it is. :)
It was interesting today in Chapel the speaker talked about Divine Appointments. The kind that God just brings together to do the miraculous in someone's life. He spoke to the faculty last week with a similar challenge. It really, truly, struck me powerfully. I already valued that, but have let the busyness of life take over. Especially where I work - there is so much to do and never enough time. Today I had to choose between a student and a department thing I had planned. A student came to me and asked if she could talk with me after class and I immediately knew what it was about. Nothing was said, but I just knew it. And at the same time thought I could be wrong, but nevertheless love this student very much and invited her up to my office. We sat down to talk and sure enough it was what I thought. I spent time ministering, praying, reading the Bible, encouraging... etc. It was truly a time for God. I was glad I chose the PERSON over the program thing.
Of course, that was what Chapel was about too. And I prayed with students after chapel. But I kept feeling this pressure that I had to hurry up because time was very limited and even though lunch is next (technically) I had only 45 minutes to run and get food (can't miss a meal while still nursing or I get really dizzy) make it to a class I needed to visit in on during lunch, get to my office to pump for a while, and get ready for my next class! Whew! Lack of oxygen just thinking about it!
How ironic! To hear a message about waiting on God and not being so scheduled that you can't make time for a "divine appointment" but feeling so pressured to get so much done! How to reconcile all that? It will take God's help, that's for sure.
I am going to go to bed! Whew! Tired.
Don't worry, more pics coming soon. Sorry it's taking me so long.