Saturday, November 05, 2005

okay, feeling a little loopy since taking meds

wooo hooooo
gotta love that tylenol cold medicine
sure helps when you feel so rotten

I'm having flashbacks to that bad bout of mono I had a few years back.

I wish my body didn't get hit so hard. Seems like others get sick but not like I do.

anyway..... today we went shopping for a little while at Walmart and made up a shoebos of things for Operation Christmas Child. It's so much fun. We picked a girl age 2 to 4 and bought crayons, coloring book, baby doll with accessories, toothbrush and toothpaste, bandaids, candy and some other stuff.... bubblegum. It's from Mazen to bless the children around the world who might not have Christmas. It's very exciting.

Other than that, we been resting. Michael mulched the leaves in teh back yard this afternoon and it looks really good.

We are working on calendare things too. So we have some some sort of sense of what is going on in our life.

A few of my students are dealing with issues related to their mother. It's interesting that I am the one they come to. I have yet to figure out how to have a normal relationship with my mother. I try... but something interferes and we have difficulty. I'm trusting the LORd to help me get through to a good relationship with my mom. That's my hope and dream. A real relationship based on sharing truths and things like that.

I know I'm not perfect. I know it's hard to be a mom. I worry all the time that I'm going to do something to make Mazen feel goofy about me.... i don't want that to happen. I want us to have an honest relationship.

life is complicated.

okay... the drugs are really hitting me hard. I better gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

2 comments:

Amanda Lee said...

I hope y'all start to feel better soon... being sick sucks. I get sick so much and I hate it... but yay for drugs!
FYI I think you are a great mom... you and Mazen will be fine. :)
A lot of people come to you about a lot of different issues... it is because of your heart. You are amazing! Thanks :)

Calley said...

Barbara,

Somehow I don't worry about your relationship with Mazen. Granted, I'm confident that you will go through some awkward times. Who doesn't? I know I have, and I'm sure that I will if I have a daughter. It never means that it's irreparable or that you've failed. It happens to the best of moms (and I have one of them). I've never known a mother who really tried and ultimately failed. Nor have I known one that did everything right. Mazen will mess up and you and Michael will mess up. But I know you know a lot about forgiveness in all its blood and glory. It's (hopefully) the story of our lives, and it's one that your daughter will grow up learning. That's a good thing.